Thursday, March 31, 2011
I recently had a moment of insanity. I did something I normally wouldn't.
Now, I'm not one of those people who resents happy people...or hides under the covers on Valentine's Day or complains loudly that it's a day manufactured by the greeting card companies.
But, this Valentine's Day, I stepped out of character and did something a little crazy.
I've always had a boyfriend. The same one, for most of middle school, high school and then we married. I've never really dated anyone else. We got married young and have been together ever since. But, then, a year and a half ago, I left him. And now I live alone, with my two boys.
And this last V-Day (about a month ago), I gave in to temptation and signed up for an online dating site.
There, I said it.
I'm hiding my head, I'm blushing.
I got on the site, made a profile and looked around at available men...
and haven't been back since.
I'm not ready to date.
I don't need a man.
I NEED to fix myself first.
Get my life in order.
And then maybe I'll find time to date.
I'm not ready.
It was just a moment of temporary insanity.